I am stuck here at my place with loads of butterflies fluttering in my tummy. Feeling incredibly sick. AW~~~

You dont know how I feel cos I am waiting for this important phone call. On the other hand, I keep wondering if I got played out anyway. Frustrating, I just want to sign and go ahead with everything. CALL ME PLEASE or I will go mad soon! Tat feeling... is just freaking me out. Imagine myself staring at the stupid phone, waiting for it to ring. Praying to god to make my phone RING RING RING! So much wanting to pull my hair out. SIBEI SIAN

I log into the website and is greeted by chinese characters. Hey ppl, I can read chinese that well. Please pardon me the argony.

I went to color my hair yesterday. Now its a mixture of red and brown. The red color is too dark though. I dont know how the guy managed to persuade me that I should try red. I nv like the color. Nevertheless, its darker and makes my hair look less damaged. Overall Satisfaction: 3/5

Meet my bf for dinner. The poor guy can't decide what he wants and keep changing his mind. I finally told him I wanted pasta. As usual, when we were almost there, the stupid fellow changes his mind again. So i blew up. We landed up fighting in the midst of city hall not wanting to look at each other even. We decided to walk from bloody city hall all the way to MS lugging a 3kg bag that was causing this horrible ache to my right shoulder now. Just to be fair, he wasnt enjoying a much better time cos he was carrying a 5kg laptop. And we ended eating Pasta~ Overall Satisfaction: 2/5

Woke up this morning, force to have breakfast and was almost late for church. Overall Satifaction: 1

After church went to takashimaya and bought 3 sets of nian gao fishes to give again. If you dont have experience in buying this nian gao thingy, please learn from me. It was so bloody heavy. In total, I think I was lugging a baggage of at least 6 kg inclusive of my bag. Overall Satifaction: 5 (for buying the cute fishes) and -4 (for carrying them) 1/5

I did lots of carrying this weekend. I hope it ends soon and tomorrow I shall wait for an Important CALL!!!!!!

Have you ever been in this situation whereby you suddenly got offered something you are hoping for so badly and then you are unsure if you want it afterall? Well I am in a dilemma now. Haiz I pretty decided wat I will do and until things are firm up, I can say anything here~ so hang in there for the secret.

Haha let me bitch about my boss again. Its pretty much the highlight of my life these days. My other colleague who was working with her, had this worse worse experience with this pathetic no brainer.
It all went like this:
One fine day, an email from an exhibitor came in. He indicated that he might want to withdraw from one of the exhibition. Thereafter, my colleague got a credit note and she sent it to him. So the next moment, my bitchy boss came round and told her, "Chris, can you please read your emails probably next time? He merely indicated he wants to withdraw. He didnt confirm it. I would appreciate that you do not just issue a credit note like tat." My poor colleague was confused. Hence, during lunch today, we were talking to our colleague from accounts about it. Chris asked why did she issue the credit note. GUESS WAT? Yes~ no prize for the right answer~ tat bitch asked her to issue. WTF~

See i told you she is horrible. Nuthing personal~ please learn to be nice ok~

I am cold in office. Now enjoying a hot milo to keep me warm. Its almost like winter here. Yaya dream on~

I had this horrible experience with smelly tofu yesterday~ if you think i wanna put tat piece of shit like thingy into my mouth again. you better think twice. ARGH thats like the worse thing I ever tasted.

Am in a happy mood today. Went swimming yesterday. Swimming makes me happy. Cant wait for the day to be over :)

Some ppl are just so despicable. They like to do things underhand. irritating. I am not a politics person, I do not know how to boot lick. Neither do I make myself all pathetic begging for sympathy from others. The person I am talking about is none other than my Executive - tat
BITCH.

How to be a Pretend to be hardworking (be a bitch to your coordinator)
1) Let out an occasional "I AM STRESSED" in office so that boss knows you are working.
2) Keep your table as messy as possible so that it looks like you are working so hard.
3) Prepare your own presentation files and shout out loud in office " I just dont want to burden Candice". %$#@~! How would I know if you do not tell me. BITCH
4) Do shout aloud in office often saying "Candice never helps me. She only does other projects.
5) Tell your coordinator " I know you hate to work with me, tats why you chose to opt out of the project". I need to clarify~ I opted out of the project EVEN BEFORE IT WAS GIVEN TO HER.
6) Do come back to work on Public holidays, but do not do any work. Just clean your table and ANNOUNCE to everyone in office saying you are too busy to clean it up on normal days.
7) Do speak in a mouse-like voice to your manager, but be as soft as possible~ You should start complaining to him about your coordinator.
8) Do cut things and leave your trash on your coordinator's table.
9) Email your coordinator on the task you assign her and say aloud in office, I doubt you do any of it.
10) Bitch to your smoking khaki about your coordinator being difficult!
11) Give your coordinator stupid jobs like data entry and faxing. Apparently, she only have the IQ to handle such task. THEN, continue to suspect that she cant complete the simple task that was assigned.
12) Take your coordinator's files/pens/wat-have-you and keep it. Then when she ask, do not admit until one week down the road. Allow her to grumble to you and then act pitiful.
13) Get your manager to ask your coordinator to do your task. Tell him say that she doesnt listen to you.
14) Work till wee hours everyday and still have no sales as well as no life.

Tats all I can think of now~ tats my life ppl~

I am sneaking in the pathetic last few minutes in office to write my blog. Had a bad bad day today. I hope I dont sound too negative cos everytime i seem to be blogging unhappy events.
Well... I came in office as usual today, off my mp3 player... made myself comfortable and realise that there are lots of paper shed on my table!!!
Tat no brainer bitch cut her paper on mytable and left her TRASH!!! IMAGINE HOW I FELT!!!! ARGH

its frustrating to speak to this kinda pea brains. Wat a bitch~ she totally score negative for respect. anyway time to knock off liao. I cant really be bothered to work OT since i am not appreciated here.

My computer is officially dead. For the past month, I have been having trouble coaxing the stubborn machine to run. Each time, I press the button, I pray and beg of it to run. The song of the 'Ti~' is music to my ears... while no sound sends me feeling frustrated and angry. I have to resort to humbling and cooing my computer to be obedient and just start working. ARGH~ I hate being ruled by machines.

Although I received a sms from my brother saying that he managed to revive it. I am not optimistic. It is terminally ill and I trust that it will not survive past Chinese New Year. Now I am awaiting to source for a new computer. Sian broke liao~ no money still must buy computer.

Its freezing cool in office and I am having gastric. I feel faint~ almost like my end is nearing. Its so horrible - I just want to pull my hair out!

Btw, after one weekend, my pretty plant seemed to grow taller again!!! HOORAY~

awfully depressed today~

I am pleading for my unhappiness to be heard by you. Will you just spend some time to just read my blog and know me better? I can't tell you who am I, I can't tell you what I want, I can't tell you why I am mad, I can't tell you anything if you ask me. But I can tell you I seek refuge in my blog. I eat, breath and live in the cyberworld. This is the real me, where I pour all my woes and sorrow.

Sometimes I just feel you don't listen to me even though you say you do. You like to bombard me with all you reasonings and excuses... Yet do you realise sometimes I just want to be pampered... to feel loved...

If you feel love is all about reasoning, then you are wrong. Love is irrational. It doesn't make sense at all. People can fall head over heels in love with a person they met the first time. Why talk about trust to me? I just want you to desire me. Something that is lacking in us. The passion... the desire... just in less than 3 months, totally dead down. Meeting up seems to be a mundane chore to you and me.

I am just a little girl seeking a place to stay. Someone who will take care of me, who listens to my problems, who pampers and love me. I just want to settle down... because I am tired and sick of being alone. But I wonder if you are the right person for me. The difference between us is you are just a simple chap while I think too much.

We talked about this many times. Have you ever wonder none of your past relationship last past 1 year? Maybe you have not realise that it might have been you. Kindly wake up and review your past. I dont want to tell you that I want to break up with you. I really want to make things work. Can you please do something about my unhappiness? I am pleading from the bottom of my crying heart...

Praise the Lord~ I wanna introduce everyone to my new Godfather - PHILIP NG!!!!

Hahaha.... finally got a godfather... now the big headache for a name.

Candice Imelda Wong - Ppl have very varied opinion on this name.. Some like it... Some associate it with the Philippine's First Lady. My mum likes it. Some of my friends love this name. Some HATE IT ~~~~ in fact everyone in office hates this name~

Candice Rebecca Wong - My cousin offered this suggestion. She say its more me.

Candice Leanne Wong - My colleague suggested this. Some of my other colleagues like this name.

Argh!!!!! I need a name... now to pray for a name.

Did some house-keeping today. My table damn messy. Clearing up bit by bit for the CNY. If not boss wanna scream at me liao. Boring day at work. Nuthing much to do lei... or nothing that interest me? I dont know lah.

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Opps this is meant for yesterday. i will blog later in this afternoon today.

Its Monday again!!! But lets all brace up for 4 days of working before we knock off and welcome a long weekend! YIPPEE!!!

Its so wonderful that one day you wake up and everything in your life seem to start falling in place again. HAHA~ you will not guess the miracle I experience! PRAISE THE LORD!!!

1) Had a heart to heart talk with Jiawei, telling him what I dare not tell him all the while. Feel happier in this relationship now.
2) Stepped out of my flat and suddenly felt the urge to return home and grab my file with my certs. Decided not to sit on the University application but just go ahead with Monash afterall. Headed home to tell mum about it. When I called TMC today, haha they told me the deadline was yesterday and I begged them to help me send in my forms today! Later need go down and pay money.
3) Got a call from Aunt Sally asking me if I am interested in a job as a secretary with a MNC. Keen lei but dont know if they wan me. Hopefully lah
4) Got a call from the few companies I sent my resume to. wan to schedule an interview with me. So I got granted an interview. haha~
5) Am still praying for a godparent! God please answer me soon on this ~

HAHA cant help feeling happy today~~~

I am CrYiNg~

I have not cried since tat fateful day when I decided to end and I am crying again after see your picture. You have moved on and so have I.

Are we happy? I miss you but I guess I have made a choice.

You never listen to me when we were together.
You never think of us when I am with you. You just live day as it comes.
You never seem to want to get tied down.

But...
You love simple things.
You have a wonderful talent that I admire.
You doted and loved me alot.
You have a wonderful sense of humour always making me lauff.

I am sorry that I hurt you in the first place. I deserve all these. Thanks... I wish you happiness

Logged into my blog early this morning~ and saw that my hit counter is jumping! tats good haha! at least ppl are logging in even if they are not reading. THANKS PPL! Cant wait for it to hit 1000!

Let me see... I have been lethargic and lazy the whole week, probably because I have not really recovered from flu. Sian ah. Sick the entire weekend and have been coughing like I am in the terminal stage of TB. Was reading my colleague's blog today and realise that, she seems kinda depress. Want to do something to cheer her up but I have not idea what should I do. Any ideas, pls tag me ppl.

Its only 12.14, so far from knocking off. Really dont feel like working and definitely not OT~ since management and peabrain executives do not appreciate your work. Can someone pls tell me why am I stuck in a shit job? WHY WHY WHY?

Its the 2nd week of 2005 and I still have not stuck to any of my resolutions!!! ARGH definitely need to SLEEP MORE!!! I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP!!!! AW~ made the one huge decision, am sleeping in on saturday! off my hp and my alarm and everything. No one will bother me. I shall sleep and sleep and then wake up and decide what to do. I am still on msn all the time. still as hot tempered, but trying to change.

Dont know what else to blog. if I am bored, maybe blog again after lunch

Sorry ppl... I have been lazy and have not blog for so long. Anyway my computer at home is terminally ill, currently in coma. I hope it gets better, or I will have to pull the plug.

Enough of crap. I have been busy with a couple of things. Firstly, I am revamping my resume. Secondly, I am actively seeking a job. Sick of working here under ingratitude management, meager wages and shitty job!~ Thirdly, I am thinking if I should just Fly to Australia now for my studies. Haiz!!!! SO MANY DECISIONS TO MAKE~ Anyone interested to hear my story... if you are please continue, or not just log off.

Well you see... my initial plan was to further my studies in 2006 with my commission. Since my commission got cut back by a whole lot, there is no pt for me to stay on. So I figured that I will do it part time and find a job that I like. But viewing from the market, apparently, I dont have much choices if I do not have my degree. So if i quit now and do my degree full time, I might as well go Australia for the exposure. Besides, my cousin offers to loan me the money and ask me to go soon, like the next few months. Then I will be away for 1 year. *GRIN* But I am stuck here cos I dont wanna go becos of Jiawei... AW!!!!!!! DILEMMA!!!!!

Can life be much easier? Maybe I complicate things most of the time. Sian I see first lah... Maybe should save money, just stay in Singapore study and get a new job. Simple as tat~ SET!!!!!

Happy New Year everyone~

2005 is finally here! Tats fast, soon I will be 23 then 25 then 50??!!!??!?!

This week I am working harder. Not slacking like the past 2 weeks. Cold Calling... fixing of appointments... blogging...

2005 is going to be a totally different year for me all together. I am sure of tat. But I hope its better.

The thing with guys, they call you everyday morning and afternoon. Then they cut to only calling in the afternoon... now they dont call you at all. Guys are hard to understand~

A weird conversation among me, Yvonne and Chris:

Yvonne: I am an intelligent ger
Me: Ya... cos you smoke..
Yvonne: Yap... cos I am smoking YSL cigarettes.
Me: Ya~ class... no wonder your lungs are black.. classic color.. plus the pus in your lungs... wow~ classic golden trims along your black lungs~
Yvonne: Way cool huh
Chris: The coffee taste blend~
Me: Ya cos I shared one pack with you. not as thick
Chris: like tat we can lose weight, less calories
Me: Already low calories, no need liao
Chris: see I am helping you, since we are both fat

Cant remember how the rest of it goes, continue from below:
Chris: people who are pretty like us dont have figure, those with figure are not pretty, and i am not talking about you Yvonne.~
Me: *lauff*
Yvonne: yaya, I am not pretty and no figure, so you mean you were pretty when you were fat?
Chris: erm... dont know wat to say

Followed by Cheryl walking in from outside, and squeaking aloud~ Yvonne squealed too cos there is a BABY cockroach!

I am stuck here at my place with loads of butterflies fluttering in my tummy. Feeling incredibly sick. AW~~~

You dont know how I feel cos I am waiting for this important phone call. On the other hand, I keep wondering if I got played out anyway. Frustrating, I just want to sign and go ahead with everything. CALL ME PLEASE or I will go mad soon! Tat feeling... is just freaking me out. Imagine myself staring at the stupid phone, waiting for it to ring. Praying to god to make my phone RING RING RING! So much wanting to pull my hair out. SIBEI SIAN

I log into the website and is greeted by chinese characters. Hey ppl, I can read chinese that well. Please pardon me the argony.

I went to color my hair yesterday. Now its a mixture of red and brown. The red color is too dark though. I dont know how the guy managed to persuade me that I should try red. I nv like the color. Nevertheless, its darker and makes my hair look less damaged. Overall Satisfaction: 3/5

Meet my bf for dinner. The poor guy can't decide what he wants and keep changing his mind. I finally told him I wanted pasta. As usual, when we were almost there, the stupid fellow changes his mind again. So i blew up. We landed up fighting in the midst of city hall not wanting to look at each other even. We decided to walk from bloody city hall all the way to MS lugging a 3kg bag that was causing this horrible ache to my right shoulder now. Just to be fair, he wasnt enjoying a much better time cos he was carrying a 5kg laptop. And we ended eating Pasta~ Overall Satisfaction: 2/5

Woke up this morning, force to have breakfast and was almost late for church. Overall Satifaction: 1

After church went to takashimaya and bought 3 sets of nian gao fishes to give again. If you dont have experience in buying this nian gao thingy, please learn from me. It was so bloody heavy. In total, I think I was lugging a baggage of at least 6 kg inclusive of my bag. Overall Satifaction: 5 (for buying the cute fishes) and -4 (for carrying them) 1/5

I did lots of carrying this weekend. I hope it ends soon and tomorrow I shall wait for an Important CALL!!!!!!

Have you ever been in this situation whereby you suddenly got offered something you are hoping for so badly and then you are unsure if you want it afterall? Well I am in a dilemma now. Haiz I pretty decided wat I will do and until things are firm up, I can say anything here~ so hang in there for the secret.

Haha let me bitch about my boss again. Its pretty much the highlight of my life these days. My other colleague who was working with her, had this worse worse experience with this pathetic no brainer.
It all went like this:
One fine day, an email from an exhibitor came in. He indicated that he might want to withdraw from one of the exhibition. Thereafter, my colleague got a credit note and she sent it to him. So the next moment, my bitchy boss came round and told her, "Chris, can you please read your emails probably next time? He merely indicated he wants to withdraw. He didnt confirm it. I would appreciate that you do not just issue a credit note like tat." My poor colleague was confused. Hence, during lunch today, we were talking to our colleague from accounts about it. Chris asked why did she issue the credit note. GUESS WAT? Yes~ no prize for the right answer~ tat bitch asked her to issue. WTF~

See i told you she is horrible. Nuthing personal~ please learn to be nice ok~

I am cold in office. Now enjoying a hot milo to keep me warm. Its almost like winter here. Yaya dream on~

I had this horrible experience with smelly tofu yesterday~ if you think i wanna put tat piece of shit like thingy into my mouth again. you better think twice. ARGH thats like the worse thing I ever tasted.

Am in a happy mood today. Went swimming yesterday. Swimming makes me happy. Cant wait for the day to be over :)

Some ppl are just so despicable. They like to do things underhand. irritating. I am not a politics person, I do not know how to boot lick. Neither do I make myself all pathetic begging for sympathy from others. The person I am talking about is none other than my Executive - tat
BITCH.

How to be a Pretend to be hardworking (be a bitch to your coordinator)
1) Let out an occasional "I AM STRESSED" in office so that boss knows you are working.
2) Keep your table as messy as possible so that it looks like you are working so hard.
3) Prepare your own presentation files and shout out loud in office " I just dont want to burden Candice". %$#@~! How would I know if you do not tell me. BITCH
4) Do shout aloud in office often saying "Candice never helps me. She only does other projects.
5) Tell your coordinator " I know you hate to work with me, tats why you chose to opt out of the project". I need to clarify~ I opted out of the project EVEN BEFORE IT WAS GIVEN TO HER.
6) Do come back to work on Public holidays, but do not do any work. Just clean your table and ANNOUNCE to everyone in office saying you are too busy to clean it up on normal days.
7) Do speak in a mouse-like voice to your manager, but be as soft as possible~ You should start complaining to him about your coordinator.
8) Do cut things and leave your trash on your coordinator's table.
9) Email your coordinator on the task you assign her and say aloud in office, I doubt you do any of it.
10) Bitch to your smoking khaki about your coordinator being difficult!
11) Give your coordinator stupid jobs like data entry and faxing. Apparently, she only have the IQ to handle such task. THEN, continue to suspect that she cant complete the simple task that was assigned.
12) Take your coordinator's files/pens/wat-have-you and keep it. Then when she ask, do not admit until one week down the road. Allow her to grumble to you and then act pitiful.
13) Get your manager to ask your coordinator to do your task. Tell him say that she doesnt listen to you.
14) Work till wee hours everyday and still have no sales as well as no life.

Tats all I can think of now~ tats my life ppl~

I am sneaking in the pathetic last few minutes in office to write my blog. Had a bad bad day today. I hope I dont sound too negative cos everytime i seem to be blogging unhappy events.
Well... I came in office as usual today, off my mp3 player... made myself comfortable and realise that there are lots of paper shed on my table!!!
Tat no brainer bitch cut her paper on mytable and left her TRASH!!! IMAGINE HOW I FELT!!!! ARGH

its frustrating to speak to this kinda pea brains. Wat a bitch~ she totally score negative for respect. anyway time to knock off liao. I cant really be bothered to work OT since i am not appreciated here.

My computer is officially dead. For the past month, I have been having trouble coaxing the stubborn machine to run. Each time, I press the button, I pray and beg of it to run. The song of the 'Ti~' is music to my ears... while no sound sends me feeling frustrated and angry. I have to resort to humbling and cooing my computer to be obedient and just start working. ARGH~ I hate being ruled by machines.

Although I received a sms from my brother saying that he managed to revive it. I am not optimistic. It is terminally ill and I trust that it will not survive past Chinese New Year. Now I am awaiting to source for a new computer. Sian broke liao~ no money still must buy computer.

Its freezing cool in office and I am having gastric. I feel faint~ almost like my end is nearing. Its so horrible - I just want to pull my hair out!

Btw, after one weekend, my pretty plant seemed to grow taller again!!! HOORAY~

awfully depressed today~

I am pleading for my unhappiness to be heard by you. Will you just spend some time to just read my blog and know me better? I can't tell you who am I, I can't tell you what I want, I can't tell you why I am mad, I can't tell you anything if you ask me. But I can tell you I seek refuge in my blog. I eat, breath and live in the cyberworld. This is the real me, where I pour all my woes and sorrow.

Sometimes I just feel you don't listen to me even though you say you do. You like to bombard me with all you reasonings and excuses... Yet do you realise sometimes I just want to be pampered... to feel loved...

If you feel love is all about reasoning, then you are wrong. Love is irrational. It doesn't make sense at all. People can fall head over heels in love with a person they met the first time. Why talk about trust to me? I just want you to desire me. Something that is lacking in us. The passion... the desire... just in less than 3 months, totally dead down. Meeting up seems to be a mundane chore to you and me.

I am just a little girl seeking a place to stay. Someone who will take care of me, who listens to my problems, who pampers and love me. I just want to settle down... because I am tired and sick of being alone. But I wonder if you are the right person for me. The difference between us is you are just a simple chap while I think too much.

We talked about this many times. Have you ever wonder none of your past relationship last past 1 year? Maybe you have not realise that it might have been you. Kindly wake up and review your past. I dont want to tell you that I want to break up with you. I really want to make things work. Can you please do something about my unhappiness? I am pleading from the bottom of my crying heart...

Praise the Lord~ I wanna introduce everyone to my new Godfather - PHILIP NG!!!!

Hahaha.... finally got a godfather... now the big headache for a name.

Candice Imelda Wong - Ppl have very varied opinion on this name.. Some like it... Some associate it with the Philippine's First Lady. My mum likes it. Some of my friends love this name. Some HATE IT ~~~~ in fact everyone in office hates this name~

Candice Rebecca Wong - My cousin offered this suggestion. She say its more me.

Candice Leanne Wong - My colleague suggested this. Some of my other colleagues like this name.

Argh!!!!! I need a name... now to pray for a name.

Did some house-keeping today. My table damn messy. Clearing up bit by bit for the CNY. If not boss wanna scream at me liao. Boring day at work. Nuthing much to do lei... or nothing that interest me? I dont know lah.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Opps this is meant for yesterday. i will blog later in this afternoon today.

Its Monday again!!! But lets all brace up for 4 days of working before we knock off and welcome a long weekend! YIPPEE!!!

Its so wonderful that one day you wake up and everything in your life seem to start falling in place again. HAHA~ you will not guess the miracle I experience! PRAISE THE LORD!!!

1) Had a heart to heart talk with Jiawei, telling him what I dare not tell him all the while. Feel happier in this relationship now.
2) Stepped out of my flat and suddenly felt the urge to return home and grab my file with my certs. Decided not to sit on the University application but just go ahead with Monash afterall. Headed home to tell mum about it. When I called TMC today, haha they told me the deadline was yesterday and I begged them to help me send in my forms today! Later need go down and pay money.
3) Got a call from Aunt Sally asking me if I am interested in a job as a secretary with a MNC. Keen lei but dont know if they wan me. Hopefully lah
4) Got a call from the few companies I sent my resume to. wan to schedule an interview with me. So I got granted an interview. haha~
5) Am still praying for a godparent! God please answer me soon on this ~

HAHA cant help feeling happy today~~~

I am CrYiNg~

I have not cried since tat fateful day when I decided to end and I am crying again after see your picture. You have moved on and so have I.

Are we happy? I miss you but I guess I have made a choice.

You never listen to me when we were together.
You never think of us when I am with you. You just live day as it comes.
You never seem to want to get tied down.

But...
You love simple things.
You have a wonderful talent that I admire.
You doted and loved me alot.
You have a wonderful sense of humour always making me lauff.

I am sorry that I hurt you in the first place. I deserve all these. Thanks... I wish you happiness

Logged into my blog early this morning~ and saw that my hit counter is jumping! tats good haha! at least ppl are logging in even if they are not reading. THANKS PPL! Cant wait for it to hit 1000!

Let me see... I have been lethargic and lazy the whole week, probably because I have not really recovered from flu. Sian ah. Sick the entire weekend and have been coughing like I am in the terminal stage of TB. Was reading my colleague's blog today and realise that, she seems kinda depress. Want to do something to cheer her up but I have not idea what should I do. Any ideas, pls tag me ppl.

Its only 12.14, so far from knocking off. Really dont feel like working and definitely not OT~ since management and peabrain executives do not appreciate your work. Can someone pls tell me why am I stuck in a shit job? WHY WHY WHY?

Its the 2nd week of 2005 and I still have not stuck to any of my resolutions!!! ARGH definitely need to SLEEP MORE!!! I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP!!!! AW~ made the one huge decision, am sleeping in on saturday! off my hp and my alarm and everything. No one will bother me. I shall sleep and sleep and then wake up and decide what to do. I am still on msn all the time. still as hot tempered, but trying to change.

Dont know what else to blog. if I am bored, maybe blog again after lunch

Sorry ppl... I have been lazy and have not blog for so long. Anyway my computer at home is terminally ill, currently in coma. I hope it gets better, or I will have to pull the plug.

Enough of crap. I have been busy with a couple of things. Firstly, I am revamping my resume. Secondly, I am actively seeking a job. Sick of working here under ingratitude management, meager wages and shitty job!~ Thirdly, I am thinking if I should just Fly to Australia now for my studies. Haiz!!!! SO MANY DECISIONS TO MAKE~ Anyone interested to hear my story... if you are please continue, or not just log off.

Well you see... my initial plan was to further my studies in 2006 with my commission. Since my commission got cut back by a whole lot, there is no pt for me to stay on. So I figured that I will do it part time and find a job that I like. But viewing from the market, apparently, I dont have much choices if I do not have my degree. So if i quit now and do my degree full time, I might as well go Australia for the exposure. Besides, my cousin offers to loan me the money and ask me to go soon, like the next few months. Then I will be away for 1 year. *GRIN* But I am stuck here cos I dont wanna go becos of Jiawei... AW!!!!!!! DILEMMA!!!!!

Can life be much easier? Maybe I complicate things most of the time. Sian I see first lah... Maybe should save money, just stay in Singapore study and get a new job. Simple as tat~ SET!!!!!

Happy New Year everyone~

2005 is finally here! Tats fast, soon I will be 23 then 25 then 50??!!!??!?!

This week I am working harder. Not slacking like the past 2 weeks. Cold Calling... fixing of appointments... blogging...

2005 is going to be a totally different year for me all together. I am sure of tat. But I hope its better.

The thing with guys, they call you everyday morning and afternoon. Then they cut to only calling in the afternoon... now they dont call you at all. Guys are hard to understand~

A weird conversation among me, Yvonne and Chris:

Yvonne: I am an intelligent ger
Me: Ya... cos you smoke..
Yvonne: Yap... cos I am smoking YSL cigarettes.
Me: Ya~ class... no wonder your lungs are black.. classic color.. plus the pus in your lungs... wow~ classic golden trims along your black lungs~
Yvonne: Way cool huh
Chris: The coffee taste blend~
Me: Ya cos I shared one pack with you. not as thick
Chris: like tat we can lose weight, less calories
Me: Already low calories, no need liao
Chris: see I am helping you, since we are both fat

Cant remember how the rest of it goes, continue from below:
Chris: people who are pretty like us dont have figure, those with figure are not pretty, and i am not talking about you Yvonne.~
Me: *lauff*
Yvonne: yaya, I am not pretty and no figure, so you mean you were pretty when you were fat?
Chris: erm... dont know wat to say

Followed by Cheryl walking in from outside, and squeaking aloud~ Yvonne squealed too cos there is a BABY cockroach!